Friday, May 30, 2008 ' 12:33 PM
& will there always be rainbow, after the rain?
haiz...veri bad moodswing todae...dono y...everythg was so fine tiz morning when i was wif felicia...itz been so long since we took a bus to sku together instead of taking the MRT...it was so great and fun...read abit on bus then played the board game DUMB wif her on psp during the bus ride...everythg was so fun n enjoyable until...i reached class n settled down and everythg started to change...suddenly tiz feeling of loneliness and sadness juz came into me and tiz feeling of wanting to b alone and b in a world of my own doing nth...tiz emo feeling juz came in...itz juz so random..a sudden change in mood...haiz...but y is this happening???i cant trace the source of where all this feeling came frm???itz been going on for quite awhile...but recently it went away until todae...i juz felt so lonely and so sad...werid...n cuz of all this i even broke fast todae...i noe i shld b fasting as a zone for revival within our zone but i juz broke fast like nobody's business...haiz...wad is wrong wif me???juz hope that thurs wid them will nvr end...when they r ard...all tiz will nvr come...i will go crazy wif them n really enjoy myself...itz been so long since i enjoyed myself so much until their appearence into my life...realli hope tt they will b there wif me 4eva...cant stand tiz loneliness feeling...itz making me wana emo and ignore everyone...i m so unsure wad is going on n wad is happening but itz juz all so wierd...it juz comes so randomly...haiz...hope that all these negative feelings will go away sn bahz...if not hav to wait for every sat and every thurs to gain back my craziness n laughter thru them n thru church...i feel like the only frenz i hav are them n felicia...i thk toz in my class r all juz hi-bye frenz who juz became fren for the sake of becoming fren juz to work as a team...when we r out of class we r juz like strangers...pure strangers as if we all have not met before...anyway...shall nt say animore...till then...tke crez...
