Sunday, June 15, 2008 ' 11:09 PM
& will there always be rainbow, after the rain?
ok...tiz post here is all about being appreciative...after hearing what my cellgrp leader said and looking back at what i do, i find myself very unappreciative of what my parents have done for me and have been doing for me... I look back and realised i have been constantly taking money from my parents and spending like nobody's business...I know that my parents have been saving in all ways they can just to keep up to my demands...my mum has been skipping meals or eating bread for lunch instead of having a proper meal just to give me money and i don't feel appreciative at all...instead, at times where she says she does not have money to give me already i would start giving her a "black" face and say "itz only $10 or $20, y cant u juz give me???" Reflecting on it nw actually makes me feel veri bad, but i just don't know why after awhile i just forget all about it n start taking money from them again and never save a single cent until nw...There are so many things my mum or dad has done for me but i had never said a word of thanks to them from the bottom of my heart before...i feel that i am just taking them for granted and not appreciating them at all...Instead i would talk bak n give them that "black" face everytime i m unhappy with them...One certain incident just happened on friday during my Johor trip... I caught eyes onto this wallet from Country Hide and wanted to buy it but my mum said lets just walk around and let me consider first...so as we left i kept on pursuading her nd my dad...So when they finally allowed we went back to the shop but to my dissapointment that wallet was just sold off to another person...the salesperson said that they only have 1 or 2 pieces of each item so itz limited...and i was so angry i so called told my mother off infront of the salesperson saying"see...look what has happen nw thanks to ur lets walk around and see and let me consider 1st...u caused me to fail to buy that wallet i like...thx ar(veri sacarstically)." My mum even said sorry and say she didnt know it was the last piece but i just walked away...Then my mum brought me to secret recepie and keep on asking if i want to eat things and ask what i want to drink or do i want my favourite cheese cake trying to coax me but i just gave her a no widout even looking at her and with a very unhappy tone...she then apologise again but i still ignored her...then i started to think about it and felt very bad for treating my mum that way...After that i atually went into prayer and prayed to God to ease my anger and seek for forgiveness for behaving like tt to my mum...my anger ceased but i still failed to have the courage to apologise to my mum...Then before leaving i told my mum i want to go back to the shop to look at the rest of the wallets again...so my mum said go ahead...then to my suprise, i actually saw another wallet that was even nicer and it was just put up to replace the previous one i liked...so i told my mum i wanted it...although it was more expensive, my mum bought it for me straight away...i was so happy with it but still i did not say a word of thanks to her...SO UNAPPRECIATIVE OF ME!!!haiz...thking back now i feel that i am just a very unappreciative person towards my parents...i feel as if whatever they d for me is what they are supposed to do...but it's not the truth...they can choose to ignore me and not shower me with love or care n concern but yet they did not and instead, i am the one being unappreciative for what they have been doing for me...anyway, i think the wallet thing is all God's plan...God want's to test my anger management and i failed it but in the end he still rewarded me with an even nicer wallet...THANK YOU GOD...and lastly, i wana say THANK YOU TO MY MUM AND DAD...I LOVE YOU BOTH...AND I AM SORRY FOR BEING SO UNAPPRECIATIVE...I WILL MAKE IT A POINT TO CHANGE AND TREAT U BOTH BETTER AND LEARN TO BE MORE APPRECIATIVE...I AM SORRY...well...thats all i gotta sae...tke cre my readers...till nxt time...LAST WORDS:RETARDED AH YUAN!!!GO UPDATE UR WEB INFESTED RUSTY BLOG LA!!!HAHAZ...
